a passage of never enough

The trauma body, arguably also referred to as an abject body, is created by infinite scenarios and can, therefore, have both intimate/personal and universal understanding.  The abject body in this performance was represented by 5 lbs of ash.  The weight is significant because it is the weight of the average female body when cremated- or in this case, a "discarded self."  This performance is an act of marking time while holding the abject body, making its presence known.  In between my shoulders is a place where I have experienced physical trauma and often find emotional trauma manifests physically there.  The performance consisted on pinching off ash from my shoulders and placing it on the floor, organized into rows.  The ash marked day- 2375 days to be exact- the period of time I experienced emotional and sometimes physical trauma.

Performance developed and documented at Hospitalfield House, Arbroath Scotland; 2018; Duration: 4 hours